Hello Sweethearts ♥

Its finally 31st December 2009 today .
HAPPY BIRTHDAY COUSIN REYNA ! <3

Wonder why I'm using the word 'finally' , maybe because I'm looking forward to go school .
Oh , in few hours time , its gonna be the beginning of my 11th years of friendship with Larry Ng .
It has been a decade ? Wow . Time flies . He became taller than me too , haha . No offence .

Suddenly , the bad scene which happened last year's today flashes in my mind .

The sound of glass breaking which brings in fear , the kind of fear I wanna overcome .

People laughing at me , teasing me , staring at me wondering how I'm gonna do things and more .

And each time such things happened , no one knows how much I'm struggling to hang on .

I suppressed those tears that gonna roll down my cheeks , I keep putting on a smile and play along .

It hurts , those days of teasing hurts so much that I nearly gave up on everything and myself .

Maybe as you read this paragraph , you'll remember how you teased me and feels guilty .

But don't . Don't even feel a single bit of guiltiness , because I wanna thank you for those teasings .

Come to think of it , it may not be a good thing but it isn't a really bad thing either .

 I thank God I'm still alive , for answering my prayers to be with me . Thank you Father :)

Through those times of strugglings , I get to know who my true friends are , friends I can go without .

Seen through many true colours . & learnt that sometimes , best friends ain't as good as friends .

Still , I appreciate those people who willingly helped me when I didn't ask , thank you so much .

At least those strugglings made me a more mentally stronger person , one with more resilience .

Glad I didn't give up that time and instead , I proved that I can do things that you people can too .

Its all just like when people see me with sister , they will ask what class she's in .
And almost 70% of them will reply : " Huh , why your sister so clever , you so stupid . "
Same goes to when I get my PSLE results , my mother said to my sister not to be like me .
What does that phrase means , how much hurt it can bring to oneself , to me , to her daughter .
And its like someone in my class who knew I took one of the O level paper to practice ,
he actually said that its useless even if I do because I'm didn't get a grade one for math .
I won't deny that all these hurts me and sometimes , I feel I'm so lousy that I'm just as useless .
BUT everything's different now , I won't be affected but I'll do even better to prove them wrong .
Whoever is out there to bring me down , by all means . Because in the end , I did prove them wrong .
My efforts , I don't need anyone to praise or compliment me about them . I did it for myself  :)

I thank all my friends for being such nice people , for being my friends .
Thank you for those who stood by me , being here whenever I need someone , to cheer me up ,
to encourage me , to help and advice me when I'm helpless , to laugh joke play with me ,
go crazy with me , angry with me ( Lol ) , cry with me , gossip with me , listen to my rantings , etc .

 Tan Shu Luan : Someone who made friend with me when I moved in to this area ,
we played badminton , she taught me how to rollerblade , we played at the playground too ,
one who would give me a surprise by my room window on my birthday . She's just more than a
great friend one could have . & I still remember we used to stick together like how bestfriend do .
She never fails to be the one who'll listen to me whenever I've got things to say . She's always
here for me and I know I'll always be there for her whenever she needs someone too :)
 Life in school next year will be without her , no more her to run up to me and scares me , no
more her to smack me hard on my back to keep me more awake when there's matches ( LOL ) ,
no more her to pretend she wants to run away from me when I sees her in school , no more
her to call me Juju Yeo when we see each other in school . Everything will be different already .
Yes , you must be thinking that we're neighbours and we can always go up to find one another .
But time sometimes doesn't allow us too . She caught up with her work and soon I'll be with studies
and netball . Even so , I want her to know how great she've been . She's just wonderful .
Jerene love Shuluan , Auntie loves Ahma , Juju Yeo loves Juju Tan !

 Mustika Natasha : This crazy ahlian . Someone who I knew was first shy , quiet , and
sometimes she looks fierce . But somehow her rebond-ed hair bring us closer . LOL ! Just
kidding . Its netball , hahaha . Someone I can go crazy with , laughing together with , shout
together with , angry together with , talks about netball together with , so on . She's such a
fabulous Moimoi Yeo I have lurh . In this case , its an extra moimoi yeo . Cause my sister was
suppose to be moimoi yeo . LOL ! Kidding again , I love this Nat Yeo Moimoi , this crazy ahlian .

 Jasmine Eileen Shini SK Hannah Jody Siaoling : Can't have recess you all anymore .
Kind of sad because I really miss those times . Hope we can always meet up and hang out together
or at least have lunch together yea ! Eileen , Shini , Siaoling , play more catchings . LOL !
Love you girls ttm !

Of course there are more whom I really can't stop saying thankyou too .
But whoever you are , I'm so grateful to have you as my friend . Hehehe , many loves !

Gonna forget all unhappy stuffs , I want happy ones ^^
Alright , gonna end here . Got more to say but too many to remember now .
Gonna go find and buy my stuffs before meeting the rest to go Peirong's place . Woots !

OHYAH ! I DAMN LOVE GUGU JAN ( My 3rd Aunt ) LURH !
SHE BOUGHT SISTER AND I A CAMERA , WOOTS ! LOVE IT TTM CAN ! (L) !

P/S I CAN'T WAIT FOR SCHOOL TO REOPEN ! WHOOHOO .

What a long post I have , LOLOLOL ! Okay , shall end here .
BYE PEOPLE ! ENJOY THE COUNTDOWN ( to my sister esp ) !

PARTY POPPERS! *Pops pops pops*  ^^

Jerene is in a really high mood today , say its great .

Jerene will be going shopping with Mummy and Sister soon , say horray .

Jerene wants to buy many things but she doesn't know what , say think harder .

Jerene says 6 more days before school reopens , say aww man or YES !

Jerene wnats to see her classmates&netball mates&teacher mates&books-mates , say aww .

Jerene can't wait for the chionging to start , the challenge for her , say jiayou !

Jerene got to go now , goodbye !

O H M Y G O S H .

O H M Y G O S H .

O H M Y G O S H .

I think I'm seriously down with something called craziness .
I dream alot and I dream so crazily . I feel like smacking myself so badly !
& Its not those dream that you have while sleeping , but those daydream . Dang -.- .

Plus , I guess something's wrong with my eyes .
When I wanna concentrate and not look at that particular person ,
my eyes will definitely auto roll/look to the directon that I don't wanna look at all .

Craziness or Madness ? Both .
This is getting ridiculous , more like the past . Don't tell me the past's scene gonna return because I won't get any better .

HI HAMMY HAMS.
( HAM TASTE SO HEAVENLY DELICIOUS , OHMYGOODNESS . DELICIACY ~ !  )

Actually I didn't plan to start off this post by how it is started .

Instead , I thought of starting it with quotes then my sudden heartfelt words .

But since I'm left with only 3-4 hours of sleep , I decide to post like usual .

Gonna wake up real early tomorrow and accompany mummy to doctor .

Wonder if we'll be able to wake up on time or sleep till noon then realise we overslept .

As you all know ( to be specific , I know ) , my family is like that sometimes . Sleepyheads .

Sometimes I can be a real crazeh sleepyhead to the extend that 10 alarm clocks can't be heard .

So I shall start sleeping early , waking up early to make it a habit before school reopens .

Wonder who's not plannig to go sec 5 next year ): I'll miss my classmates badly lurh .

P.S. I actually can't wait for school to reopen . Crazy or Crazeh ? ^^ Different me .
And I don't know why many ain't looking forward to school reopening . It'll rock much :b .

Okay , back to the topic .

Then we'll head for shopping @ Bugis before going to the parents' meeting stuff again .

Gah , gonna listen to what have to heard for the third time , making me sleepy .

Ohyah , as I was messaging with dearest Nat Yeo MM ,

we talked about the upcoming Northzones that is drawing nearer and nearer to date .

I wonder if the rest of the girls are treating this seriously ; It can't be just Nat and I alone .

Studies and Netball , both at the same time . I'm gonna do my best and put in 101% effort .

Guess there'll be times I feel like slacking and slowing down a little , but NO WAY MAN !

Girls , if you're reading my blog , get ready for some tough trainings yea . No complains .

Maybe I sound a little too serious , but of course such things will be balanced well .

Really hope for the best next year .

Okay , this feeling is getting abit too serious , weird and whatever I should call it .

Should change to something abit relaxing or again , whatever I should call it :\ .

Had fun bball-ing just now , it keeps me exercising and burning the darn fats that I'm having D:

& I wonder why words that come out from Reagan's mouth are always so funny -.- LOL !

Each time I look into your eyes , there's words I wanna say . Things I wanna tell you almost so badly , but couldn't be said .
That sentence made me ponder a little , dream alot , I think too much for goodness sake and I don't know why .
First time long ago , Second time before , Third time when ? It's still a question to be answered by time , some times later .

Guess its time to go to bed ? Goodnight ♥ .